Thursday, March 15, 2007

long time...

I've been doing my devotions in my notebook; I've just been so scatterbrained...

i feel...(numb)...i feel entirely (too much)...

empty. unwilling. unworthy. unyielding. yearning. dissatisfied. disconcent. tired. weary. frustrated. fatigued. weak. unable. stuck. stuck. stuck. stuck. stuck. stuck.

stuck in the mire...can't go back...can't go forward...just...sinking (gulp).

sometimes the only consolation is...He loves me. I need to shout it on the roof top...HE LOVES ME! No matter what happens, even in the thick of things, He loves me. Isn't that enough? Shouldn't that be enough?