Friday, June 29, 2007

undivided heart.

11 Teach me your way, O LORD,
and I will walk in your truth;
give me an undivided heart,
that I may fear your name. (Psalm 86)

An undivided heart is one that is whole and completely devoted to one thing. A broken heart is anything but that. A broken heart is shattered and undecisive. It has no direction and no devotion.

I wonder if God purposely allowed my heart to be broken into a million pieces so that when He pieced it back together it would be whole and undivided. Of course He had a purpose, but I wonder if it was just that.

When one is in excruciating pain, when loneliness is heavy, and when darkness evades, it is time to turn to God. It's really hard to worship Him when we're so completely involved in this world, but when everything is taken away, its worth and its value, then we can return back to Him.

In these vulnerable times, we will surely fear Him in wonder and awe.

1 comment:

gilda said...

i sometimes wonder too. (well, i think you knew that already) and i've thought about this so many times over so many years. seriously, i need a Q&A session with God if i ever get the chance. but i guess, you must have some downtime before you can learn to appreciate the beauty of good times, and of love. so no matter how many times our heart gets broken, we try and try again because we'd remember how good it was supposed to feel. so i hope he mends our hearts and keep us close to him. amen. :)